Psalm 139

1 You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.

This is both comforting and frightening. God knows us fully, He knows all that we think and do. That can be scary when we think about how unruly our minds sometimes are. But it is also an amazing comfort and blessing to know that there is someone that knows you 100%.

Though we often try and hide aspects of our lives, I believe that most people do have a desire inside to be fully known. To have someone you can go to and have no façade and completely let your guard down. We search for that in people, but it isn’t something that we can find in them, only God. I think that desire can even cause us hurt and frustrations in our relationships with people because we want that other person to fully know us, and when they don’t [can’t], we can feel let down if we aren’t viewing them in the proper light.

I often wish my husband could read my mind when I say that I want a snack, but I don’t know what I want – I want him to know what I want. But other people weren’t made to know us fully. Only God gets to hold that position, and that is a good thing. People are imperfect, they can let us down by their imperfections, but God never does. And so thanks be to Him that He is the one that knows us completely.

The following verses continue a similar idea and expand into the fact that there is nowhere we can go that is away from God’s Spirit. I want to just copy all the verses and paste them here, but you can go read them.

Even when we try and run from God, there is no where we can go that He is not there. And not only is He there, but He loves you so fully and deeply.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

Before you were even born, God knew you, and He loved you so fully and completely that our human minds cannot understand. But we can trust and know that that is true.

I’ve had the privilege to carry two children within me, and that concept of loving someone in an inexplicable way before you have even met them connects with me. And what is crazy to me is to think of how much deeper and wider the love God has for us – stronger than any earthly parent can have for their child, and I know, that love is already deep. And it humbles me and brings me to tears to know that God loves my children more than I ever could. And I am so thankful for that, and that He loves us all in that way.